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April 28, 2012

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Instinctively, I laid my hand on the first person’s head and said, “God bless you.”  I went all the way down the line of 40 people and moved over to the other side.  Even longer lines of rainbow-stoled children of God stood at the other exit.  Compelled to go there, I could not stop without blessing each one.  Just as Jesus healed by touch, so touching their heads was meant to be a sacramental act of healing. When I touched heads, some smiled, some looked into my eyes, others looked straight ahead, and still others remained with heads bowed.  Some had tears in their eyes or streaming down their faces.  “God bless you.”  “God bless you.”  “God bless you.”  All were fully present to the moment, including me.  I was transformed.

The next moment I was heartsick.  Watching delegates and visitors stream out of the exits, I saw some people totally ignoring those wearing stoles, as if they were invisible.  Others wore steely or annoyed expressions on their faces and would not make eye contact.  Several were chatting with friends and appeared not to notice.  Some seemed sympathetic but did not know how to respond.  A few stopped to interact.  Years ago I decided that Jesus does not allow any of us to make exceptions about whom to love.  Every day I struggle with the implications of that decision, but I am more clear than ever that if God can love a person like me, then I will covenant to love and honor everyone, with God’s help.  God bless you.

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April 28, 2012

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Response to Richard Swanson

My heart is with your heart, brother. The guilt and shame, and the tremedous loss to the UMC and beyond is enormous. A PFLAG dad and retired UMC clergy person.

Ted McKnight more than 1 years ago

Homosexuality clause


It is a disgrace that the "incompatible with Christian teachings " clause is still on the books.

John R Huff Jr more than 1 years ago

40 years

I was 15 and still struggling with my sexuality in 1972, when the General Conference first declared homosexuality to be incompatible with Christian teaching. I was a 25-year-old seminarian at Candler in 1982, when it was made clear to me that, although I believed God had called me to the United Methodist ministry, there would be no answering call from my church. (Also that year was the last time my UM parents, who are now around 80 years old, ever spoke to me.) In 2012 I am 55, a veteran of the wilderness, and wondering indeed what might have been, had the Church not shut its doors on my vocation. "Deeply painful" does not begin to describe the spiritual, and sometimes physical violence continually directed toward God's own--and YOUR own--children. I know that even today, some number of bright and beautiful youth are experiencing the same pain. This has gone on long enough; perhaps the actions of the church 40 or even 20 years ago might be forgiven, but knowing what we all know, seeing what we all have seen, and yet continuing to proclaim and to reinforce this deeply blasphemous and destructive policy is a scandal to the Gospel. Shame. Now I have tiptoed back into a lovely local church, where I am welcome, in an annual conference where I am welcome, but I can never be a full member anywhere in the connection unless I am welcome everywhere. I pray as always that this hateful exclusion might finally yield to the patient call of Christ. Lord, in your mercy, hear our prayer.

Richard Swanson more than 1 years ago

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